Changes

Just now, it started to sink in.

My work life would drastically change next year.

Changes are often met with varying emotions. Currently, I’m anticipating the change next year with anxiety and panic. I know that this will change eventually. I know that I will be able to bounce back and find ‘work happiness’ eventually.

While playing a mindless game, these emotions started to flood in. I just want to acknowledge them.

They say that when you repeatedly do something for more than seven times, it becomes a habit. I have been ‘work happy’ for the past few months. Thanks to the wonderful people around me – office mates turned friends. We have developed our habits together – lunches, movies, coffee, cookies, videoke sessions, laugh trips, kwentuhang walang humpay.

I know that next year would be totally different. B is leaving us for the Department (light at the end of the tunnel – she’ll be our ’student’ for the next six months). D will return to her ‘normal’ work with J but coffee with her and occasional laughs would be a great booster. A will be confined to his workplace, won’t join us for lunch… I wonder about coffee though, but the marathons would surely end which is really a bummer. At least there’s Ir, not unless she goes to the US with F for vacances. Also, not unless they get promoted… then, my predictions will be wrong.

I, on the other hand, will be slaved by work again. I might be able to breathe again by June. I already have an out of town schedule for mid-January. I might not be able to join coffee, take late lunches, and be stressed enough to extinguish ‘work happiness’ in my vocab. I hope it won’t resort to the last one.

*Sigh!*