Baby Thoughts

How will one be ready for an offspring?

I can’t say that I haven’t experienced any “baby envy” these past few months. My recently-wed friend is six weeks pregnant, my high school barkada is six weeks pregnant too (I wonder if they did it at the same time… hehe!), my office friend just gave birth, another office-mate is pregnant, and people at w@w and n@w are either pregnant or raising a child.

People have been perennially asking me about having a baby. I answer them with the same response over and over again.

Joven and I decided to try to have a baby next year for various reasons. But, I think the main reason is that we both want to be comfortable (emotionally and financially) as husband and wife before having a child.

I also can’t say that I am 100% ready to have a child. My biological clock is ticking away and I know that it is only ideal for me to have a child pretty soon if we want to have two… or more. I know how much responsibility it involves and how it would change my life. I also have various baby-related fears. But, I don’t discount the power of prayers.

Good thing, I have heard about the rewards of having a child too. That part, I’m really looking forward to.

Anger Management?

Late this afternoon, I was in a meeting with two of my officemates. One was a section head, the other was his staff. We were planning what to do to speed things up for our project. He was telling me to do 3/4’s of the project he’s heading. I was so pissed off with the guy, I want to reach over and hit him in the head. I told him that I should have been the section head instead if that’s what he wants. I told him that I won’t be doing what he’s asking me to do. I told him to find a way to do it instead. Talking with raised eyebrows and a tone I myself didn’t like. I really had a difficult time controlling myself.

My reaction surprised me. I haven’t been this mad in ages. I get annoyed sometimes but not mad.

What made me this mad? He signed me up for the project without my consent. I was working on three different projects, i.e., I am very busy. He was either half-day or absent almost all days of the week and he wants to rush me. I already did the half of the 1/4 left for him to do. Now, tell me who wouldn’t be mad?